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  • Harshad Joshi 10:00 am on April 23, 2013 Permalink | Reply
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    Photo of today – in the shadows, in the light 

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  • Harshad Joshi 7:53 am on June 13, 2009 Permalink | Reply
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    1 year 

    It began last year..

    13 June 2008.

    1 year exactly…So many things there I dont want to remember.

    It ended..it had to..either this way or that..I am relieved it did..not the way I wanted, but still….Its over…forever..

     
  • Harshad Joshi 10:01 am on July 31, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Ego, Love,   

    The Ego and the flames 

    Ego is bad. Very bad. And when you find someone more egoistic then you, then its extremely hard to describe how badly it hurts. What exactly hurts is not known, but somewhere within, deep inside there is pain..lot of pain..words can describe it…but its real and it exists.

    I found  a new way to get over pain.

    1. I searched for all her conversations from the server. All the dialogs were intact on Gtalk, Gmail and Open Server.

    2. Brought a bundle of executive bond papers, the most expensive ones.

    3. Opened every conversation I had with her.

    4. Print was the command.

    5. Printing continued till the entire executive bond paper bundle became empty.

    6. Gathered all of them, and arranged them properly.

    7. Went on the terrace. Sprinkled some kerosene on it. 1 match stick was enough..

    8. As I watched the flames consuming the conversations I had with her, within my true self, something was feeling to be at peace. I think it was ego, maybe..

    9. Threw the matchbox in too…emptied the whole kerosene bottle..the eager flames were hungry for more..

    10. Felt much better. It was all over for me…One relation ended. I finally was at peace..The rage seemed pacified…

    I hope things will be normal now. Slowly, but surely, I will be back. I am not a slave of my ego, but I cant promise anything if it gets hurt.

     
    • aqua gurl 3:49 am on August 1, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Good one, but i wish it was that easy.
      I hope things get better with you!!!
      Time is the strongest healer to such wounds, the most reliable!!!

    • Harshad Joshi 10:44 am on August 2, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @valencia

      Well..I guess it wasent easy afterwards..I had purchased those expensive papers for taking printouts of the stamp collection I found on flickr…Later Dad inquired about those pages, and I nonchalantly told him -‘I set them on fire’..He was stunned..!! I had to hear many things…I had to apologize to him. Probably he knows the real reason, he’s just waiting for me to confess it…I will speak it out to him soon…

      Till then, alls well…

    • Fari B 11:36 pm on August 5, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Ego is painful, you are so right. I had a big pain today, as my ego came up against my mothers. The worst thing about ego is that is implicitly hard to see in ourselves and easy to see in others. That is the nature of introspection, to reveal.

    • chirax 9:22 am on August 27, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Hmm… Ego is Good, Makes to stand up for yourself.

    • sunnysideofliving 6:59 pm on September 21, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Nope. Ego is not good at all….atleast not with loved ones.. Causes break ups of friends and lovers more than anything else.

  • Harshad Joshi 8:27 am on July 20, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Beautiful face, Beauty, Love, Marathi Actress, Marathi Films, Modelling, Natrang, Sonalee Kulkarni, Sonali Kulkarni   

    Sonali Kulkarni – the new face in Indian modelling field 

    Sonali Kulkarni

    I saw her first at Zee Marathi Awards 2008. I searched Google/Yahoo/Flickr, but all that I got was Sonali Kulkarni, the arts film actress. Finally, after much search and much wait, I got hold of her pic. Next time someone searches for Sonali Kulkarni images, this picture should be displayed in the results. Lets see…Its good to know that she hails from Pune.Umm…thats cool.

    Hey Sonali, you rock. I wish you good luck for the future.

     
    • prashant 3:41 pm on September 18, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      i louve you sonali

    • Anitha 8:43 am on January 15, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      Hi Sonali,

      Hope u remember us (three sisters Kavitha, Savitha & Anitha) we used to stay in ‘C’ Type Quarters, Dehu Road, Pune. You all used to call my mother “Amma” & also come for tutions at our house.

      All the best to you, take care

      Anitha

    • Mukund G. Dabholkar 10:27 am on March 5, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      I saw her in Tata indicom, Zee award & Marathi film, it’s a really having spicy, charming look… All the best for her better future

    • Mukund G. Dabholkar 10:30 am on March 5, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      When I was seaching Sonali Kulkarni pics in google, I tried a lot finally got very less pics one of the best is in this site. I want more more pics of sonali…

      pls forward to above mail id.

    • mangesh 10:46 am on March 31, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      Tumche 2 movie mi pahilya.

      1. Bakula namdev gotale.
      2. aaba zindabad.

      Ajun kiti movie aahet tumchy?

      plz sanga….

    • mangesh 10:55 am on March 31, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      Me Tumchy 2 Movie Pahily.

      1. Bakula Namdev Ghotale.
      2. Aaba Zindabad.

      Ajun Kiti Movie Aahet Tumchy?

      Plz Tell Me……….

    • pranil 11:41 am on April 24, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      hey i love sonali
      anyone know somethin more abt her
      i.e her forthcomin movies or somthin like dat
      plz forward it to above mail

    • amit patel 7:50 am on June 19, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      hi sonali i sow

    • amit patel 7:54 am on June 19, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      hi sonali i saw you in Goshtha Lagna Nantarchi at Vasai i like your acting and you also. i ask suresh sali Production Manager about you i like your face i cant sleep proper after i saw you buy take care of your self i am your good wisher pls. take care of your self.
      i love you and miss you lot.

    • Harshad Joshi 8:07 am on June 19, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      @Amit Patel

      hehehehe….. 😉 😛

    • sandeep 11:35 am on July 2, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      chhan kiti disate fulpakharu………….

    • CHETAN 8:42 am on July 11, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      MI AAPLA BHARPUR MOTHA FAN AAHE AANI TUMCHE SNAP NETWAR JAST UPLABDHA NAHI AAHET MALA HA EKAHC BHETALA SO PLS SEND ME YOUR AT LIST ONE ORIGINAL SNAP
      THK U
      WISH U GOOD LUCK FOR UR CARRIER

    • pradip 9:21 am on September 25, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      hi sonali tu gadhvach lagna ya picher madhye jo endra darbari nache sundari ya ganyasathi jo shrungar kela ahes khar jyaveles mi to picher madhey tula tya paridhanat pahil an mi mazhe bhan harpun ghelo hoto aas vatal janu swargatali pari tu asavi kharach tuz te rup avarnniya ani mohak vatale tuze te rup pahun ase watale janu kadakyachya unhat achanak paus padava ani aganit pavsachya suya angala tochun ji prasanata milel tevadhi tuz rup pahun watala ashich pragati karat raha tuza shatkotimadhil ek chotosa tuza chaheta

    • Harshad Joshi 11:11 am on September 25, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      @Pradip

      Hahahaha…thats incredible..hehehehe..!! 😛

    • kishor 9:59 am on October 5, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      WISH U GOOD LUCK FOR UR CARRIER………..

    • Vijay Kale 10:54 am on October 17, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      Hi Sonali,

      You are just incredible..when i first saw in BNG, i didnt knw ur name so i thought who is this foriegn actress..but when i came to know about ur profile..i just went mad..i love you somuch..can do nething for u..pls come down to kolhapur sometime..i want to see u..or tell me ur address..i will come down..

      Love you..

      Bye take care..

      • Harshad Joshi 11:37 am on October 17, 2009 Permalink | Reply

        How optimistic..:P 😀

        hehehehehe…

        BNG? What is BNG?

        • Pankaj 11:47 pm on October 17, 2009 Permalink | Reply

          at Harshad……….

          BNG – Bakula naamdev ghotale….

          rather than laughing at everyone put some input abt sonali…..ther r some fans (crazy), let them share there feelings….. 🙂

    • jitesh 10:02 am on October 23, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      plz mail me sk images

    • Parikshit 4:50 am on December 7, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      Hey sonali u r the most beautiful girl and u rock….

    • seema 10:19 am on December 25, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      Hi Sonali,

      I am also one of your fan from Pune. Actually I am a dancer and till date I was just loving Madhuri’s dance but after I saw your performance on “Apsara Aalli” in zee marathi awards, I can now definitely say that after Madhuri now there is you. Me and my all friends will surely see you coming movie “Natrang”. Good and keep it up. But just one request please don’t leave Marathi film industry ever becuase we need you. Please reply on given email-id if you’ll ever see this comments.

      Love u……Seema

    • Akshay Kulkarni 7:32 am on December 30, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      Kulkarni ya naavatach jaadu ahe….kai bolava hey kalat nahi…pan jar kadhi tu maaza ha comment vaachshil tar mala ekhada mail karnyachi tasdi ghe….I promise, we could really be gr8 frnds..! and yes…Best luck…

    • priya 7:37 pm on December 31, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      hi sonali i saw u the add of dagina rite?in nashik ithought u r from nasik means my friend pankaj jhut bolata hai k aap usaki girlfriend thi? but u r really nicebes luck

    • prem 7:20 pm on January 3, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      nice dance in “AAPSARA,” hope we will see such nice performances again and again.

    • sachin 8:27 am on January 4, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      I Love U Sonali…………..

    • deepak 8:38 am on January 4, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      I Love u sonalee………….realy am a big fan of yours………..

    • praful 8:41 am on January 4, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Realy i am a Big fan of yours,Your NATRANG Movei Is So super U r so sweet Work in this Movei,Realy I like You……………….

    • Zack 8:47 am on January 4, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Sonali Kulkarni,

      I don’t know if Sonali really reads this comments, but its just a attemept to reach her.

      I read all the comments from your fans (Am your fan too), and guess what all of us feel about same that you’re gr8.

      You’re gourgeuos, you act well, you dance well, I mean everything about you is so perfect.

      But, I was wondering what kind of person you are? (don’t misunderstand).
      I mean whats your nature, are you introvert or extrovert?
      Are you down to earth or are you a high flyer?
      Do you like reading books or you’re a geek (technology freak)?
      Whats you qualification?
      What cell phone do you use?
      Whats your favorite movie?
      Whats your favorite food?

      There are lots of queries, Why don’t you write a blog and we can be your followers?

      If you ever read this, try to answer some of my questions or may be all of them! I got more like this.

      Tumhi ahatach itkya chan ani talented tar amchya sarkhe lakho fans asnarach na tumche.

      Tumcha navin movie ‘NATRANG’ kalach pahila, shabd sapdat nahit.
      Sarvat adhi sangen, as always tumhi far far far far sundar dista hya movie madhe and simply great performance.

      Atul kulkarni ni sudha amazing kam kela ahe, man what a gr8 transformation, from normal person to a pehlwan and then to a Maushi!
      Simply stunning!

      Pan khara tar tumchya sathich amhi mule (all male fans) movie baghayla gelo hoto.

      All the best for future, amhala asech chan chan movie pahayla tumhi ankhin changle changle kam kara

      Bye and take care

      Tumcha pankha
      Zack

    • pratik 10:24 am on January 5, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hey ,Sonali u ar d upcoming best actres,instead of saying upcoming u ar now best in best actres looking at promo and movie natrang OH u ar amazing,good ur song ” APSARA AALE” OH u ar looking grt and acting speechless grt , just to say b grt , do movies, we want to see u more and more ”atleast once i want to met u,i like u i m ur grt fan,just want to chat wit u face to face i hope my drm come true” may sucesss alwys wit u,bye

    • hemant kulkarni 8:42 am on January 7, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      u look so beautiful in Natrang. speacilly in the song “Apsara ali”.
      best luck.
      and plz reaply me.

    • Nishant Nirbhavne 10:26 am on January 7, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Dear sonali

    • prashant 4:57 am on January 8, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Hei… sonali;

      I don’t know if Sonali really reads this comments,
      Really i am a Big fan of yours, you r looking fabulas in natrang.
      u r dance is tooooooo good. There is lots of improvment in u r
      acting, as per as consider to namdev ganpat ghotale..
      so keep it up & best of luck.. & take care..
      And one more tuze photo nahi aahet net war … shodhun thakalo..lawkar upload kar..

    • amit akkalkotkar 3:02 pm on January 8, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      u r tooooooooooooooooooooooo
      Gooooood
      or u r
      BEST

    • sunny 11:56 am on January 9, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      kay distes janu mazi swapnatli apsara

    • Rohan 7:37 pm on January 9, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Hi Sonali… The first time I saw you in Gadhvacha Lagna…. I was impressed…..n d second time I saw you was in Zee awards n I went Mad…. The way u moved was simply irresistable…. I hope u read this…
      God Bless You…
      ur well wisher…

      Rohan

    • nilesh 7:04 am on January 11, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      me premat padloy sonali cha
      kharach apsara ahes tu

    • Rahul 4:17 am on January 13, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Nothing else U R Just APSARA & RAMBHA……….

    • sameeeeeeeeeer 9:33 am on January 13, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      heeeeeellllooo sonaliji i saw you in bakula namdev ghotaleeee u looking sssssooo fanta…… my goood wishes with you for ur comingggg charming lifeeeeeee…………… nn ur really coooollllllll

    • raviraj 6:55 am on January 14, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hey !! hi sonali !!
      i just wanna say that you are looking awesome in “Apsara aali” song.

    • Amol 3:32 pm on January 18, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      yo sonali tu kharach Apsara aiha.

    • Yogpot 10:27 am on January 20, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      mazyakade sonalisathi fakta ekach word aahe ..
      Sonali .. nad khulacha……

    • umesh 7:13 pm on January 21, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Namaskar….
      mala aapan far aavadta…….
      me aaplya premat padlo aahe…..

    • ajay 12:48 pm on January 22, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      tu khup sundar ahes, jashi swapnatali pari, jasa phulanar gulabach phul, cham cham ti chandani, ya agoder tuzyaitaki sundar marathi flim madhe kunich navata , tuza he khulanar saundarya asach khulat rahude, tuza te mohak hasana asach rahude. tu kharch apasara ahes ji swapatun ithe utarali …….. best of luck

    • yogesh kadam 4:09 pm on January 22, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      when i saw a movie called BAKULA NAMDEV GHOTALE , I she bcame one of my favourite actress.
      but now since I’ve seen NATRANG, I’ve fallen in love with her …
      Now , she is my new dream girl

    • sujit gadekar 8:38 am on January 25, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      you make a very good acting in natrang, bakula namdev ghotale.
      I LIKE YOUR PERSONALITY.

    • Guna 7:02 pm on January 27, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      I love u Sonu…
      Tujhya shivay ratri chi zop udali ahe…

      keva he apsara yenar

      Tujhach ani fakt tujhachhhhhh…
      Guna..Kagal gaon…

    • tushar 4:32 pm on February 6, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      krupaya hindi movie kade walu naka .

      ase mala fakata watat nahi pan we all friend were having chat on this. first time a good looking and well acting karnari star .maharashtra la milali ahe ..ani hindi movie madhe kam kele tari side heroine manun karu naka or a house servent plzzzzzzzz<

      best of luck.

    • abhi 7:10 am on February 11, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      More Pics of sonalee

    • Ghanshyam 6:49 pm on February 14, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Gadhvacha Lagna
      Bakula Namdev Ghotale (Best Actress 2008)
      Aaba Zindabad
      Hay Kay Nahi Kay
      Natrang
      Iraada Pakka (to be released)

    • balasaheb 10:06 pm on February 19, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hi sonu …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

      I don’t ask u any question becouse of if i see your picture I forget any things…………………………….

    • sunil phutane 6:59 am on February 22, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      kadhi bhetshil

    • ganesh 5:05 pm on February 28, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hello……
      best luck for ur bright future currier..
      god bless you

    • Smita 8:06 am on March 4, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Hi Sonali…… u r really having such a good look…specially in yhe song Apsara aali in natarang……. i reallly like u.
      but some times i hate u too coz my boyfriend also like u so much…n i get joules that time… 🙂
      all the best 4 ur future life…..

    • rahul amrutkar 6:50 am on March 8, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      marathi movies can better when sonali like actors are coming into this field

    • rahul amrutkar 6:52 am on March 8, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      marthi movies are on rocking when somali is coming in marathi

    • abhi 9:24 am on April 16, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Sonalee’s New Movie Iraada Pakka

      [IMG]http://i43.tinypic.com/1zyhbgj.jpg[/IMG]

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      [IMG]http://i39.tinypic.com/ddovb6.jpg[/IMG]

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    • DEEPAK 6:41 am on May 30, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      u r most beautiful woman in marathi cinema. i like u very much in natrang.

    • DEEPAK 6:42 am on May 30, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      i think u r most beautiful woman in marathi cinema. i like u

    • dr shree 5:32 pm on June 18, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      excellent performing. wish to see u agadi javalun luv u

    • dr shree 5:34 pm on June 18, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      make me ur gd friend

    • Tushar Kulkarni 9:08 pm on July 10, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Hi…… Sonali Kulkarni I m d big fan of urs ur very good dancer & u r goodlooking kulkarninche nav aapan pudhe nyave hich saddhicha .. aaply upcoming films konty?

    • mohsin (M.D) 7:35 pm on July 29, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      me tumcha pahla chitrapat natrang pahila aani tewwah pasun tumcha fan jhalo…….
      mala jast bolta yet nahi but i want 2 say u i like ur acting

    • swapnil 6:21 pm on September 7, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hi…Sonali. im big fan of your.
      i have seen your 2 movies, Natarang & BNG. you have acted really well in both movies. u have really promising future. you make us watch marathi movies. thnks.
      waiting for forthcoming movies.

    • jatinder 8:46 am on October 1, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hiiiii

    • harshal wani 9:22 am on October 13, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      love u sonu ..tu kharach khup chan distes. pan marathi film madhech kam kar .jay maharastra. your fan;HARSH from nashik

    • shrikant 3:14 pm on October 21, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hi sonali
      u r looking so cute
      u r so butifull
      u r looking lovely in sarri
      i want u r smily imeges plz send me on my email id …………………..
      plzzzzzzz…………..
      shrikantgatkal11@gmail.com

    • Ravindra more 1:31 pm on November 10, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Hi sonali…………! give me a one chance to meet you.

    • Nikhil N 2:21 am on November 29, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      Me tuza khup motha fan ahe. Me tuzya sagalya film pahilya ahet

    • sharu 4:46 am on December 21, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      he sonali mala mahiti ahe saglech tuze fan ahet pan tya sarvan pekshya mi zara jast veda ahe tuza…………………………..

    • kishor 5:00 am on December 21, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hi , sonali……………………………….

    • sharu 5:05 am on December 21, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      He sonali , mala mahiti ahe sagle tujhe fan ahet pan tya saglyan pekshya mi zara jast cha veda ahe

    • kishor 5:06 am on December 21, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      He sonali , mala mahiti ahe sagle tujhe fan ahet pan tya saglyan pekshya mi zara jast cha veda ahe

    • sharu 5:08 am on December 21, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      hi……………………………………

    • dipak 7:30 am on February 24, 2011 Permalink | Reply

      you so looking beautiful & cute. i like u r movie natrang

    • vipul 9:17 am on July 25, 2011 Permalink | Reply

      ur a2 geogeous

      • vipul 9:25 am on July 25, 2011 Permalink | Reply

        many people hv told u, u hv changed a lot………………………………….! but the truth is i think……………………………….. u hv found yourself……………………

    • KUNAL JANRAO 4:09 pm on August 1, 2011 Permalink | Reply

      hey u rock yaar………….
      i like you
      do u like to meet me
      im eager to meet you………
      so in short i love you my angle

    • Ketan haware 4:45 am on March 4, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      Hi sonalee i m very exiciated to see u in your upcoming movie ajinta in paro so i m your great fan for ever and ever i love your name

    • RAJ 12:47 pm on May 18, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      Wish u Happy Birthday Sonali.
      I Like You

    • yogesh...g 1:07 pm on May 27, 2013 Permalink | Reply

      Hai sonali ji ,i am latur city sonali ji aap to bhoat sutndar hai aur app ki awaz bahot achi hai….ok sonali ji besttop luck.

  • Harshad Joshi 8:50 am on July 9, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Dilemma, , Love, Myspace, People   

    The New Age dilemma 

    • S: (n) dilemma, quandary (state of uncertainty or perplexity especially as requiring a choice between equally unfavorable options)

    I have discovered a new ego bruising experience. If you are a single individual, and having lot of virtual girl friends on social networking tools like Orkut, then you might have noticed that whenever the girls status changes to ‘commited’ there is something, a sort of silent tiing that goes across the mind..It isent exactly pain or unhappiness, its something mix of surprise, shock, bruised ego and just like that…

    No actual reason why this happens, but fair enough, so many times I have preached to people – Digital Social Networks esp Orkut are a fun, playway mirror of our daily lives, but the real problem arises when we start relating those tools with our real life and begin attaching our emotions and expectations to our virtual meetings. A timepass turns trouble for some. Should Orkut/Facebook/Myspace be avoided? Or is it the beginning of a new age desperation? Boy…this things tough to comprehend…Web 2.0 has binded people togather on a common platform but no ones ever thinking of the trouble that is following us..Wake up…Welcome to the new age dilemma.

     
  • Harshad Joshi 4:18 am on July 9, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: मन उधाण वार्‍याचे, मन उधाण वाऱ्याचे, Love, , , Mind, My Own   

    मन उधाण वार्‍याचे 

    मायेच्या हळव्या स्पर्शाने खुलते,नात्यांच्या बंधात धुंद मोहरते..
    मन उधाण वार्‍याचे गुंज पावसाचे,का होते बेभान कसे गहिवरते…
    मन उधाण वार्‍याचे …

    आकाशी स्वप्नांच्या हरपुन पान शिरते,
    हुरहुरत्या सांजेला कधी एकटेच झुलते,
    सावरते बावरते झडते अडखळते का पडते..
    कधी आशेच्या हिंदोळ्यावर मन हे वेडे झुलते..
    मन तरंग होउन पाण्यावरती फ़िरते..
    अन क्षणात फिरूनी अभाळाला भीडते..
    मन उधाण वार्‍याचे…

    रुणझुणते गुणगुणते कधी गुंतते हरवते..
    कधी गहिऱ्या डोळ्यांच्या डोहात पार बुडते..
    तळमळते सारखे नकळत का भरकटते..
    कधी मोहच्या चार क्षणांना मन हे वेडे भुलते..
    जाणते जरी हे पुन्हा पुन्हा क चुकते..
    भाबडे तरी भासांच्या मागुन पळते..
    मायेच्या हळव्या स्पर्शाने खुलते,नात्यांच्या बंधात धुंद मोहरते..
    मन उधाण वार्‍याचे गुंज पावसाचे,का होते बेभान कसे गहिवरते…
    मन उधाण वार्‍याचे …

    आकाशी स्वप्नांच्या हरपुन पान शिरते,
    हुरहुरत्या सांजेला कधी एकटेच झुलते,
    सावरते बावरते झडते अडखळते का पडते..
    कधी आशेच्या हिंदोळ्यावर मन हे वेडे झुलते..
    मन तरंग होउन पाण्यावरती फ़िरते..

     
  • Harshad Joshi 5:10 am on July 7, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Love,   

    Everlasting Love 

    You are my everlasting
    You are my everlasting love

    Hearts go astray
    Leaving hurt when they go
    You went away just when I needed you so
    Finding your way
    You come back on to me
    Im gonna stay loving you endlessly

    Open up your eyes
    Then you realize
    Here I stand with my
    Everlasting love
    Need you by my side
    Theres no need to hide
    Never be denied
    Everlasting love
    From the very start
    Open up your heart
    Be a lasting part of
    Everlasting love

    You are my everlasting
    You are my everlasting love

    Look in my eyes
    See my love burning strong
    No more goodbyes
    In your arms I belong
    Our time has come
    All my dreams have come true
    Two hearts as one
    Loving me loving you.

    Open up your eyes
    Then you realize
    Here I stand with my
    Everlasting love
    Need you by my side
    Theres no need to hide
    Never be denied
    Everlasting love
    From the very start
    Open up your heart
    Be a lasting part of
    Everlasting love

    Heres the link to the song, hear it online.

     
  • Harshad Joshi 2:28 pm on July 3, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , , Love, ,   

    पाऊस 

    पाऊस पडून गेल्यावर, मन पागोळ्यांगत झाले...
    क्षितीजाच्या वाटेवरती पाण्यावर रांगत गेले.
    थेंबांना सावरलेल्या त्या गवतांच्या काडांचा...
    पाऊस पडून गेल्यावर, मी भिजलेल्या झाडांचा
    पाऊस पडून गेल्यावर, मन थेंबांचे गारांचे..
    आईस चकवूनी आल्या त्या डबक्यांतील पोरांचे !
    मोडून मनाची दारे, येवुली पाऊल भरती..
    पाऊस पडून गेल्यावर, या ओल्या रस्त्यावरती..
    पाऊस पडून गेल्यावर, मी चंद्रचिंब भिजलेला
    विझवून चांदण्या सार्‍या, विझलेला शांत निजलेला
    पाऊस पडून गेल्यावर, मन भिरभीरता पारवा
    पाऊस पडून गेल्यावर, मन गारठता....गारवा...

    गार वारा हा भरारा, नभं टिपूस टिपूस

    रानी वनी, पानोपानी, मन पाऊस पाऊस

    माती खाली खोल खोल, ओल मातीच्या मनास

    मातीवर थरथरे, ओला सुवास सुवास

    पावसाळी पायवाटा…जरा उदास उदास…

    दाही दिशांत पाखरे, जणू आभास आभास…

    रान मोकळे मोकळे, बघे भारुन नभास

    त्याचा हिरवा हिरवा….आज प्रवास प्रवास

     
    • Ravi 8:29 pm on May 9, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      Sonali tumhi khup chhan…acteing karta

  • Harshad Joshi 4:56 am on July 1, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Love   

    I say you goodbye 

    When you departed…
    It was only a day.
    Now it’s some weeks.
    Soon it will be years.
    It’s so hard to say good-bye.
    Nevertheless, goodbye.

    The waves are calm already,
    It echoes in our hearts.
    There is so much to tell,

    There is so much to share like we used to,

    But where are you to listen? gone
    Still I say goodbye

    The memory torments,
    Memories of the good, the bad and the ugly times,
    Of the happy sad and bittersweet experiences we shared.
    In trying to be brave, I say goodbye,

    goodbye forever
    Though in tears,

    because, in the end, I loved you

    😦

     
    • cia 6:58 pm on July 1, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      did you write it??

      nyce!!!

      well you know what, memories and people come n go, and so you got to stand up brave, say goodbye, face life….move on.

    • joyeetamajumdar 2:11 am on July 2, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      What you have lost was never yours dear, and what is yours will not be lost for long!!

      Love is free…unconditional…unbiased…illimitable…infinite!
      Open your heart and let it fly free…let the love from your heart engulf your world as well as of those around you.

      When one door closes on us…another opens..but we spend so much time crying over the closed door that we totally miss the newly opened door of limitless opportunities, of all what we truly deserve!

      Cheers 🙂

    • Harshad Joshi 4:37 am on July 2, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Hi Joyeeta..

      That open-close door theory works fine, but for lesser mortals, grief always hurts…In no way I support grief, but what can I do? Love hurts…

      Love hurts if you dont get it, but you you are blessed enough to have someone you truly like, is another experience in itself. Actually, the word love is too filmy and too overused…The real feelings are something divine sort of thing, hard to describe and tell in words, but they are real and true..

      Enjoy 😛

    • joyeetamajumdar 10:04 pm on July 2, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Yes. I agree…
      It hurts a lot. But if we acknowledge the pain instead of fighting it, and allow it freedom to express itself…through writing, reading…talking, most importantly by having lots of quiet time, there will be a gradual shift of focus…towards the lush green side of LIFE!
      When your feelings are as true as they are…you only deserve the best and in time all that you deserve WILL come to you. 🙂

    • discoveringtheworld 8:33 pm on April 27, 2009 Permalink | Reply

      thats quite impressive

  • Harshad Joshi 3:03 pm on June 27, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , Love,   

    शब्द 

    शब्द ही निशब्दः झाला, पाहून तुझ्या लेखणीला, गहिवरलेल्या ओळीनीही अखेर घेतला स्वल्पविराम आधाराला!!

    You are my talisman, I love you forever.

     
  • Harshad Joshi 4:47 am on June 26, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , Dharma, , Enlightment, , , Healings, Illusions, , , Love, , , , , , Shri Shankaracharya, , , , , ,   

    Enlightment,a new hope 

    मी आसाच आहे……
    धर्मासाठी झुंजावे…
    झुंजोनी अवाघ्यांसी मारावे…
    मारिता मारिता घ्यावे राज्य आपुले…
    देव मस्तकी धरावा,
    अवघा हल्लकल्लोळ करावा..

    Men are haunted by the Future. Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity. And so we ask ourselves: will our actions echo across the centuries? Will strangers hear our names long after we are gone, and wonder who we were, how bravely we fought, how fiercely we loved?

    I call myself a Peaceful Warrior… because the battles I fight are on the inside..

    All Karmas proceed with the force to either remove pain or gain pleasure
    Experiencing pleasure and pain, we roam the streets of Samsara

    Where there is Birth, there will be certain pain
    There is certain Death, and nothing to gain

    Not knowing light from darkness we roam the streets of misery
    In beauty there is ugliness
    In ugliness I see beauty too
    What a repulsive body that I have which oozes grime and filth
    These carnal desires do I find unfulfilling

    Where there is Birth, there will be certain pain
    There is certain Death, and nothing to gain

    Sadashiva Samarambham Shankaracharya Madhyamam
    Asmadacharya Paryantam Vande Guru Paramparam

    सदाशिवा समारंभम् शंकराचार्य माध्यमं
    आसमादचर्यां पारयनतम् वन्दे गुरू परंपरामं

    Finally the Truth is seen
    Unknowable once to me but now known to me
    What an error it is to take myself to be what I am not

    No words can reveal me
    Yet words alone set me free
    The beatitude revealed through desciplic succession

    No delusion for me
    I am the ever free
    No illusion for me
    I am the ever free

    Finally, the desires are Ash, I smear those ashes on my forehead and I free myself. Bhasma on my body..Bhasma on my soul..I am liberated….the Pain turns to Love….a new hope..Maya reveals her true form…

    Maya is inevitable…

    I submit myself to Maya..

    Maya has set me free…

    The revelations are known…

    May there be peace..

     
    • cia 8:51 pm on June 26, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      As one of the noble truths of buddha say,

      all human existence is painful, eliminate the pain by eliminating the cause.

      however, nothing is permanent.

    • Harshad Joshi 8:02 am on June 27, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Buddha was suffering from acute depression…But do you know that Buddhas teachings did protect Indian sub continent from maniac Mongols till 1962 India China wars??

      The only way to prevent any sorts of conflicts is to accept the things as they come to you without asking for its purpose or to think about its consequences. The only truth is the Desires we have with us. Denying Desires for some imaginary reasons is root cause of sorrow, and its funny that in todays marketing age, people can cash on sorrow too..if you can cash it on, sorrow is fine, else submit yourself to Maya unconditionally, rest assured, everything works in your favour…

    • motogp46 3:44 pm on June 28, 2008 Permalink | Reply

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    • Jenny and Edward 8:45 am on July 2, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Loved it… Painful but so true for those who seek true peace and enlightenment. The Journey of enlightenment begins with the first step.
      Living In The Light of God… ~~~Jenn~~~

  • Harshad Joshi 5:21 am on June 25, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , Heart break, , , Love, ,   

    तू 

    तू आकाश दिलेस मला
    मनमुक्त उडण्यासाठी
    आणिक एक घर दिलेस
    थकून कुशीत शिरण्यासाठी

    आता थोडे थोडे सगळ्यांना
    आकाश वाटत फिरतोय
    ज्यांना घर नाही त्यांना
    घर देण्याचे स्वप्न बघतोय

    घरी वाट पाहतय कोणी
    तू असा दिला विश्वास
    मी फिरतोय खिन्न दिव्यात
    भरत अता ज्योतींचे श्वास

    You were the one I was dreaming all my life..You were my rain, you were the Sun, I needed both, because I needed you..Words are poor substitutes for feelings, specifically those feelings which are intense, at the same time too complex…But now what remains is the Ashes…The Ashes of Desires…The word cruel is too overused, how can people be so cruel? Why? What makes them behave so brutally? Am I always wrong in learning people? How can it be? She was so beautiful…I remember..it was cold November..leaves were falling..life was a dream…Today my dreams are lost, but I thank God for the little chance he gave me to have those wonderful experiences. Thank You God, I used to see you through her. Bless her.

    Poem is stolen from here.
     
  • Harshad Joshi 4:47 am on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Divine, , , Fiction, , Love, , , ,   

    Dedicated to my lost love – Honey, I loved you immensely 

    Every time u call i freeze
    When your close to me i feel a chilly breeze
    I know something is not right
    Could u b the one making me feel so tight

    I didn’t use to like u
    But now could it b true..
    Am i falling in love with u?

    So innocent, so sweet and surreal
    Casting a swirling aura around us
    Turquoise eyes drowning and drenched
    Within the angelic love song

    The hearts had met to one mystic soul
    Wanted to feel this forever and ever
    Never to cease and fade, never to wane
    My love I always felt , would always
    Last till the end of the time.

    I agree that this short peom isent mine, I take no credits for it. I dont know who’s written it, but what matters is that its an apt example of whats going through my mind..Normally I dont speak mushy, but now I am letting it out in public.

    Honey, listen to me, you may never know or understand  it, but if you  read this, I confess that I loved you more then anything else. True we may never meet, but if I could show you what true love was, then its this….My words are turning empty, but the feelings arent…Dear God, if you get time from you daily chores, can you please listen up a prayer I sent for her? Keep her happy. Just keep her happy, I know what pain is like, but I wish she remains happy. She retaught me the purpose of life.Those beautiful moments she passed with me make me feel heaven. I have no complaints with what happened, nor I care a damn about whats gonna take place, but the fact is, I am in deep love, I am rediscovering myself in a form previously unknown to me..

    Gosh, these feelings….let the rain come down and wash away my tears, let it shatter the walls and drown my fears..I feel as if I had been kissed by an angel of Love..A new day …has come…..

    To all those boozing hounds and enemies of Love and haters of God, non believers in Love – This post is not meant for you. Not at all for you. If you are the pathetic and immature souls whose concepts are fake as that of Maya, get a life..shoo away, you get it, just fly away..hide yourself into deepest dark oceans or infinite space..Go….!!!!

    Disclaimer While the people I write about are real, the experiences I post here may or may not be real and related to people I know. Its just my thoughts I have spoken to myself. If anyone of you finds a co-incidence, then rejoice…maybe I have taken some inspiration from you..And honestly, I do not hate anyone in life, even if you have managed to break my heart, you know that I am a brave soul 😉 Maybe 10 years from now I look back and say – O boy, I was so mad, crazy at times, I dont know. We are all strong and weak at times. So dont mind anything, just read, enjoy and move on with life
     
    • fennychandra 9:18 am on June 25, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Have you told her you love her? It’s funny if you share your deepest feeling to the world and she’s the only person who doesn’t have a clue. Come on..tell her.

    • shanupalani 9:11 am on June 30, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Its really great …. If she miss u she is very unlucky girl…. Even i too fell in love and my partner left me now… So i know the pain of love… But its all in the fate…

    • Arabinda 7:25 am on August 20, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      hey u have written something as a virtuoso ,saluting u man, my chimera is just like yors, nice to read yor writing. my world is something that i cant leave myself from the cultured beauties world.and my love is not blind but sees sees and ultimately loves her. hav a nic day .

    • sunnysideofliving 7:04 pm on September 21, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Very very poignant and touching…… I can relate to it too….

  • Harshad Joshi 2:36 pm on June 22, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , Friendship, , , Jilted Love, , Love, ,   

    Good Grief 

    This heartbreak hangover has continued for fairly long time, I mean its more then a week I havent been able to pick my spirits up. In one point of view, everything appears as a dead end, especially in this fast globalized ultramodern age, with so much technology and gadgets around, who would bother to wait and listen? Its such a fast paced world. Friendship made and broken in seconds, split seconds without batting an eyelid, On the other hand, the mind, the frenziness of emotions and feelings tell an otherwise story. Whom to really care for? Inspite of technology, the communication and understanding gap still prevails between people. This comes to notice specifically when one apologizes to a girl by making use of email/sms/chat combo. Even a guy advised me to meet her and sort it out. Boy, I had that courage and might, then probably I wouldent even have these bad feelings get into my way. This is Karma, we attach our emotions with so many people really without knowing the consequence of what will happen in future. Some blokes I know are pretty calculated individuals, they do not allow emotions to get in their way, call it a professional approach of sort.

    This incident taught me many things.

    1. No matter how much rich your dad is, a gurl will first look at you and your capabilities. Atleast the one who analyses you for a long time dosent get impressed by the prizes you won, she looks at the job and the yearly package. No other impression ever works.. 😦

    2. Surrounded by technology, we might get a feel of being a technocrat or whatever, but primitive feelings like emotions, rage, jealousy still exist. By no means we can avoid it. The forms and definations of ego might have changed, but it still continues to hurt as hell.

    3. Love hurts. In every age Love hurts. It has hurted me a lot. I dont know if I am mature enough to understand its true meaning, but the seen consequence makes me wonder – I am freaky enough to be loved?I am an equally loved and hated guy, I remember most of those occasions when I was hated..

    Gosh darn those status lines on my Gtalk – Love and Hate are one and all, sacrifice soon turns to revenge..

    A girl may not find these lines romantic enough, especially when shes commited to someone else. She will take it as an ominous sign of flirting, and bang, thats the end of all relations..no amount of apologies work, meeting is impossible, no truce…no peace, direct attack…what else??

    4. If you have been hurt before in relations, its wisdom to avoid complications in first place itself. If any jilted lover is reading this, I would advise – Avoid relations that do not exist. Example – A fragile relation that occured during a meeting over in social networking tools like MySpace, Orkut, FaceBook etc. These relations are never serious, they do not have any name, Modern pundits call it cyber relations, I dont have any good name for it. I mean its crazy concept to even think of attaching a name and emotions to a thing that exists in electronic world. Its true that sentimental fools like me are fond of attaching their feelings to the most ridiculous and insignificant things that exist in this world, its difficult at times. Here, every occasional hi, hello is a symbol of friendship, and every relation is apparantly a permanant one. Madness in all respect….I am a mad person who has got a provan track record of being in madly with love with girls I know I would never get to see, to touch, to talk and so on…This is my flaw, and I seriously need to get over it. My ex girl friend said that she avoided me because I did not had a ‘pure’ friendship with her. If I know that saying hello to her in wee hours of morning can spell as disaster I am suffering from, I would have avoided it. I am going to avoid it all togather throughout my life. Never send a girl an sms that can spoil your party. Controversies are never comfortable…

    5. Even if sacrifice may turn to revenge, you may not see the face who would say ‘I love you, I will kill you, but I will love you forever’ (Sobs…Sobs…..Tears…Sniff) I didnt 😦 Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…….

    I will update this if my girl replies back to me, else think this as the end of this post (and my spoilt relation as well ) Hey Girl, dont mind, I will still continue loving you..Pure love knows no limits   😦   (Sic..Snifff…)

     
    • Adi Crazy 6:50 am on June 23, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      🙂 Damn right you are. Agree with most of it.
      Did your girl reply?

    • Harshad Joshi 7:06 am on June 23, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ Adi

      Hi Adi. I met her. I apologized using all the words I knew till today, but she didnt like my new role of a jilted lover. I asked her if our relations would be right as they were earlier, she indirectly said ‘No.’ If this wasent enough, as per expectations, she informed me that shes getting married soon…I could do nothing more but nevertheless, I congratulated her. That was the only option I had, nothing more we can do. Relations are a crazy thing.

      Age of Lonliness is bad enough, and someone telling you that you are lonly is more bad then ever….

    • fennychandra 3:50 am on June 26, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      I can’t agree more. Love hurts. Avoid relations that do not exist. Example – A fragile relation that occured during a meeting over in social networking tools like MySpace, Orkut, FaceBook etc. My last messy relationship started from Skype. And here I am now with my grief. *sob sob*
      Cheer up dude!

    • The Big K 7:18 am on July 17, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Hmm. Look, some girls are idiots. Maybe your loved one was an idiot? 😀 . Be passionate about something in life and excuse people who have hurt you.

      Don’t keep on babbling about love all over you blog. Enjoy!

    • Harshad Joshi 11:52 am on July 17, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ The Biiig K

      Yeah, I ended that ‘heartbreak hangover’, everything seems fine now.. 🙂

  • Harshad Joshi 6:24 am on June 20, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , Hell, Innocence, , Love, , , , Threats, Time,   

    Moments of madness and sadeness(and peace too) 

    Its night. I am on the terrace, waiting for Nikhil. Our meeting is late by almost 2 hours, and on top of that, the sms meant for him went to someone else whom I have recently hurt a lot. Yeah, she was my only good friend who used to enquire – ‘Howz you’, no one, even my so called best buddies never asked me so sweetly of how am I? No one cared. I mean why would anyone bother?? My image in front of them is that of a warrior, every move is a war, every step is a step taken in battlefield, no place for emotions. Warriors are not meant to be asked ‘Howz you’, its assumed that they are fine. Why emotions? The only emotions that were known were Rage, and madness fueled by arrogance and ego, an ego I dont remember the time I carried first. Why do I have that image? Why am I attracted towards pain? Why do I have so much ego and arrogance that not only hurts me but also the people who are around me. Why? No one bothers to know this, but I am going to put it in public, I am suffering it for past 3 days, and its too much for me. The guilt is killing me. Its not the first time, but then who says that sufferings are easy? Sufferings are sufferings, everytime we suffer, it hurts. It hurts like hell. Why did I make a hell of my only good relations? Was I proud? Was I vain? Was I mad? I dont know, but definately I am sade.

    Coming back to the meeting. Nikhil and I met after almost 2 months. Strange thing. Two brothers living in a same place chat over Instant Messenger, instead of offline meetings. Ridiculous or inevitable? Is it overuse of technology or height of geekiness?? Whatever…

    I told him for my problems. His solutions are always working. I trust him for almost anything. He said – ‘Brother, why did you suffer?’, I said ‘I dont know’, pat came the reply – ‘Coz you are new to it’, I said ‘But she didnt feel anything about it’ He responded – ‘ Reason is that – its not new for her’ Boy, I wonder from where my brother gets these answers? He is genius for sure. He makes a good software engineer, ruthless at times, but very practical and to the point. Not unlike me, an emotional fool, too vulnerable to get hurt in this hard world. Is this the reason why I wear a mask of a Warrior? I dont know.

    We discussed many things- Current trends in industry, the upcoming standards, the bugs, the errors, the childhood memories, esp the one of playing hockey and football, had a good laugh at it remembering our innocent days.It was an innocent world far far away from tangents of todays technology.Candy tasted like Candy, sugar was sweet, TV was cartoons and joy was joy, no adultrations. Mom says I am still that innocent child trying to find his lost toys in a huge world. Lost toys? Will ever I get to regain my lost toys?

    BTW, a sms seeking her apology has gone unanswered. I know it reached her,but currently she is too hurt to respond. I will wait. Time can heal every wound. Hate can be pacified. Desires can be overcome, only Time knows how and when…

    To be continued…

     
  • Harshad Joshi 5:25 am on June 20, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , Dream, Heartbreak, Illusion, Love, ,   

    Illusion – आभास 

    आभास हा….. छळतो तुला…छळतो मला…!!

    Today is the second anniversary day when she met me on orkut, and sadely, today marks the first day of our official breakup.. 😦 Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa………!!!!

    (Someone put off my flames……I am burning….)

     
    • cia 5:15 am on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      I could sympathize, strange but true-3 days back was the first anniversary of our first meeting and fairly about 5 days ago, this year,we broke up.

      Couldn’t feel crappier, but still, i move on.

    • Harshad Joshi 9:36 am on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ Cia

      Forgive the poor soul who wasent lucky enough to be yours. 😉

      You can maximum pray for the peace of the unblessed ones, God listens to them.

    • cia 2:16 pm on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ harshad

      all the forgiveness n blessings are granted, he begins his married life in a couple months=)

    • Harshad Joshi 2:35 pm on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ dude who broke cia’s heart

      Mate, if you ever stumble upon here or if you realize it by yourself, you will be surprised to know that Cia loved you truly, she just forgave you for folly you made. Next time dude, dont break a heart. Not all girls are kind hearted as cia.

      @ Cia
      You are a gem of a person. May God preserve your kindness.

  • Harshad Joshi 11:37 am on June 19, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Friends, , Greed, Love,   

    Why! … 

    I was childish and unfair
    To you, my only friend
    I regret, but now it’s too late

    I can’t show you anymore
    The things I’ve learned from you
    Cause life just took you away

    And I’m asking why! …
    And I’m asking why! …
    Nobody gives an answer
    I’m just asking why

    But someday we’ll meet again
    And I’ll ask you

    And I’ll ask you why! …
    Why it has to be like this
    I’m asking you why
    Please give me an answer

    Many years and stupid fights
    Till we accept to see
    How it was and it’ll always be

    Why it has to be like this
    Why we don’t realize
    Why we’re too blind to see the one
    Who’s always on our side

    And I’m asking why! …
    And I’m asking why! …
    Nobody gives an answer
    I’m just asking why

    Just tell me why! …
    Why it has to be like this
    That the good ones disappear
    I’m asking you why

    And I’m asking why! …
    And I’m asking why! …
    Nobody gives an answer
    I’m just asking why

    And I’m asking why! …

     
  • Harshad Joshi 4:16 am on June 18, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , Love, , , Relationships   

    Random Mumblings after a sleepless night 

    I am staring at my Mug right now. I dont know what I am feeling, but its sure that its not a feel good thing. Looking at myself, I wonder – What makes me suffer so much? What makes me behave crazy at times? How come my instincts lie to me at times? Why do my trusted tricks fail at the worst moments? Why do I get same thoughts after spending a complete 10 hours sleepless night?

    Wish I could scream and let the whole world know I am unhappy, I wish I could cry and announce my sadeness, at least let those emotions flow though my tears, but nothing happens. I am just looking at myself and thinking – From where do these emotions come? Why is my face emotionless? Where are my emotions? What happened to them? Have I lost my emotions due to these gadgets((mobil, wifi, broadband, satellite tv, internet, blogs, networks) around me? This 24 hours connected craze has drained me completely..on top of that, inspite surrounded by technology, people, I am lonely…as lonely as a single cloud on a bright sunny day. At least that cloud looks beautiful on a blue background, me me is in blues, in gloom. Still no emotions in sight..has the mirror lost his charm…or is he showing me a fadeout picture of my everlasting cast…Love is phasing…Love is moving to the rhythm of her sight…I get closer, to the crossing point of light…

    I dont remember that I was awake or in half sleep, but I do remember a bright light when my eyes closed. A bright light. Reminding of fire..fire like that of desires…Desires never burn, Desires never end, Desires are never over..and surprisingly, Karma spares no one..All night I wished there could be darkness, a place I could hide, but this light kept on chasing me. Is this what people call enlightment?? And why do people get en lighted only when their heart is broken? Is my heart really broken? Is it my figment of imagination?? I know that this world is a cruel place, no importance to emotions, especially for some stupid one called as attraction, love, whatever..But then I see people around me in love, where am I in there?

    I need to take a break. I wish to loose my senses for space and time…And I will…..

    At the same time, its wrong to long for a thing that never belonged to you, no one gave me the right to peek in their private life. I am not on the right track, need to return on my rivers of beliefs…the original me. The strong Harshad Joshi. The one who was before knowing all this. The one who stood by his principals. The one who fought against all evils. The one who was firm on his grounds. The one who never compromised. The first one to fight and the last one to quit. Thats me. Thats me. I want my glory back. O Mohiniraj, give me my strenght…

     
  • Harshad Joshi 4:35 am on June 15, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , Crazy, , , , , , , Love, , , ,   

    The 100th post 

    Love - Picture of hearts

    I am in love, inspite of the fact that I am not going to reach anywhere closer. Strange word this Love, one of the most primitive feelings yet the strongest one with no parallel. I know its crazy to fall in love with someone you have never seen, just occasionally heard and met only through Instant Messaging. Is this relation called cyber love? Whatever…

    Even if its a cyber or virtual love, I wont deny, my feelings are as strong as ever…Love hurts, when the girl you are after seeks someone else, Love definately hurts…but falling for her is a crazy concept in all aspects, God knows why I have affinity to fall for someone elses girl….3 times it has happened. 1st time – I didnt had courage to speak up, the 2nd instance – she was married (she was my teacher..!!) and now, this 3rd time – Shes committed already, and poor me, is bruised yet again for absolutely no reasons..once again I experience the sadeness…

    The only memories for a jilted cyber romancer like me is to occasionally go through the IM chat history desperately trying to capture those wonderful moments or to go through the sms she sent me…Boy, I have gone crazy, crazy as ever….

    Monday, 16 Jun 08

    Actually I am feeling much better now. I think a blog post helped me more then half a dozen anti depressant pills and couple of beers. So, moral of the story – The Zen Hindu Brahminism advices to write a blog each time you succeed, each time you fail, each time you are happy, each time you are sade. Posting or writting helps to unpersonify dukkha..

     
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