The Ego and the flames
Ego is bad. Very bad. And when you find someone more egoistic then you, then its extremely hard to describe how badly it hurts. What exactly hurts is not known, but somewhere within, deep inside there is pain..lot of pain..words can describe it…but its real and it exists.
I found a new way to get over pain.
1. I searched for all her conversations from the server. All the dialogs were intact on Gtalk, Gmail and Open Server.
2. Brought a bundle of executive bond papers, the most expensive ones.
3. Opened every conversation I had with her.
4. Print was the command.
5. Printing continued till the entire executive bond paper bundle became empty.
6. Gathered all of them, and arranged them properly.
7. Went on the terrace. Sprinkled some kerosene on it. 1 match stick was enough..
8. As I watched the flames consuming the conversations I had with her, within my true self, something was feeling to be at peace. I think it was ego, maybe..
9. Threw the matchbox in too…emptied the whole kerosene bottle..the eager flames were hungry for more..
10. Felt much better. It was all over for me…One relation ended. I finally was at peace..The rage seemed pacified…
I hope things will be normal now. Slowly, but surely, I will be back. I am not a slave of my ego, but I cant promise anything if it gets hurt.
sunnysideofliving, 
chirax, 
aqua gurl 3:49 am on August 1, 2008 Permalink |
Good one, but i wish it was that easy.
I hope things get better with you!!!
Time is the strongest healer to such wounds, the most reliable!!!
Harshad Joshi 10:44 am on August 2, 2008 Permalink |
@valencia
Well..I guess it wasent easy afterwards..I had purchased those expensive papers for taking printouts of the stamp collection I found on flickr…Later Dad inquired about those pages, and I nonchalantly told him -‘I set them on fire’..He was stunned..!! I had to hear many things…I had to apologize to him. Probably he knows the real reason, he’s just waiting for me to confess it…I will speak it out to him soon…
Till then, alls well…
Fari B 11:36 pm on August 5, 2008 Permalink |
Ego is painful, you are so right. I had a big pain today, as my ego came up against my mothers. The worst thing about ego is that is implicitly hard to see in ourselves and easy to see in others. That is the nature of introspection, to reveal.
chirax 9:22 am on August 27, 2008 Permalink |
Hmm… Ego is Good, Makes to stand up for yourself.
sunnysideofliving 6:59 pm on September 21, 2008 Permalink |
Nope. Ego is not good at all….atleast not with loved ones.. Causes break ups of friends and lovers more than anything else.