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  • Harshad Joshi 3:33 am on June 29, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: 1971 India-Pakistan war, History, , MS Dhoni, , Sam Manekshaw, , World Peace   

    Tributes to a warrior – Feild Marshal Sam Manekshaw 

    Field Marshal Sam Manekshaw, MC

    I pay tributes to Feild Marshal Sam Manekshaw. A true soldier, a brave son of India, you have got no parallel. You will be remembered for several generations. Sam Bahadur, we are proud of you. History and Future will always respect you for your valour.  I wonder what the Indian cricket team might be thinking when they beat Bangladesh (former East Pakistan) at Karachi, Pakistan in the Asia Cup 2008. Except for MS Dhoni, most of the players are nuts…least they should remember that this victory comes due to the valient efforts of some brave men, one of them being Sam Bahadur..Bangladesh owes this man a lot.

  • Harshad Joshi 3:03 pm on June 27, 2008 Permalink | Reply
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    शब्द ही निशब्दः झाला, पाहून तुझ्या लेखणीला, गहिवरलेल्या ओळीनीही अखेर घेतला स्वल्पविराम आधाराला!!

    You are my talisman, I love you forever.

  • Harshad Joshi 4:47 am on June 26, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , Dharma, , Enlightment, , , Healings, Illusions, , , , , , , , , Shri Shankaracharya, , , , , ,   

    Enlightment,a new hope 

    मी आसाच आहे……
    धर्मासाठी झुंजावे…
    झुंजोनी अवाघ्यांसी मारावे…
    मारिता मारिता घ्यावे राज्य आपुले…
    देव मस्तकी धरावा,
    अवघा हल्लकल्लोळ करावा..

    Men are haunted by the Future. Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity. And so we ask ourselves: will our actions echo across the centuries? Will strangers hear our names long after we are gone, and wonder who we were, how bravely we fought, how fiercely we loved?

    I call myself a Peaceful Warrior… because the battles I fight are on the inside..

    All Karmas proceed with the force to either remove pain or gain pleasure
    Experiencing pleasure and pain, we roam the streets of Samsara

    Where there is Birth, there will be certain pain
    There is certain Death, and nothing to gain

    Not knowing light from darkness we roam the streets of misery
    In beauty there is ugliness
    In ugliness I see beauty too
    What a repulsive body that I have which oozes grime and filth
    These carnal desires do I find unfulfilling

    Where there is Birth, there will be certain pain
    There is certain Death, and nothing to gain

    Sadashiva Samarambham Shankaracharya Madhyamam
    Asmadacharya Paryantam Vande Guru Paramparam

    सदाशिवा समारंभम् शंकराचार्य माध्यमं
    आसमादचर्यां पारयनतम् वन्दे गुरू परंपरामं

    Finally the Truth is seen
    Unknowable once to me but now known to me
    What an error it is to take myself to be what I am not

    No words can reveal me
    Yet words alone set me free
    The beatitude revealed through desciplic succession

    No delusion for me
    I am the ever free
    No illusion for me
    I am the ever free

    Finally, the desires are Ash, I smear those ashes on my forehead and I free myself. Bhasma on my body..Bhasma on my soul..I am liberated….the Pain turns to Love….a new hope..Maya reveals her true form…

    Maya is inevitable…

    I submit myself to Maya..

    Maya has set me free…

    The revelations are known…

    May there be peace..

    • cia 8:51 pm on June 26, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      As one of the noble truths of buddha say,

      all human existence is painful, eliminate the pain by eliminating the cause.

      however, nothing is permanent.

    • Harshad Joshi 8:02 am on June 27, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Buddha was suffering from acute depression…But do you know that Buddhas teachings did protect Indian sub continent from maniac Mongols till 1962 India China wars??

      The only way to prevent any sorts of conflicts is to accept the things as they come to you without asking for its purpose or to think about its consequences. The only truth is the Desires we have with us. Denying Desires for some imaginary reasons is root cause of sorrow, and its funny that in todays marketing age, people can cash on sorrow too..if you can cash it on, sorrow is fine, else submit yourself to Maya unconditionally, rest assured, everything works in your favour…

    • motogp46 3:44 pm on June 28, 2008 Permalink | Reply

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    • Jenny and Edward 8:45 am on July 2, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Loved it… Painful but so true for those who seek true peace and enlightenment. The Journey of enlightenment begins with the first step.
      Living In The Light of God… ~~~Jenn~~~

  • Harshad Joshi 5:21 am on June 25, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , Heart break, , , , ,   


    तू आकाश दिलेस मला
    मनमुक्त उडण्यासाठी
    आणिक एक घर दिलेस
    थकून कुशीत शिरण्यासाठी

    आता थोडे थोडे सगळ्यांना
    आकाश वाटत फिरतोय
    ज्यांना घर नाही त्यांना
    घर देण्याचे स्वप्न बघतोय

    घरी वाट पाहतय कोणी
    तू असा दिला विश्वास
    मी फिरतोय खिन्न दिव्यात
    भरत अता ज्योतींचे श्वास

    You were the one I was dreaming all my life..You were my rain, you were the Sun, I needed both, because I needed you..Words are poor substitutes for feelings, specifically those feelings which are intense, at the same time too complex…But now what remains is the Ashes…The Ashes of Desires…The word cruel is too overused, how can people be so cruel? Why? What makes them behave so brutally? Am I always wrong in learning people? How can it be? She was so beautiful…I remember..it was cold November..leaves were falling..life was a dream…Today my dreams are lost, but I thank God for the little chance he gave me to have those wonderful experiences. Thank You God, I used to see you through her. Bless her.

    Poem is stolen from here.
  • Harshad Joshi 4:47 am on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Divine, , , Fiction, , , , , ,   

    Dedicated to my lost love – Honey, I loved you immensely 

    Every time u call i freeze
    When your close to me i feel a chilly breeze
    I know something is not right
    Could u b the one making me feel so tight

    I didn’t use to like u
    But now could it b true..
    Am i falling in love with u?

    So innocent, so sweet and surreal
    Casting a swirling aura around us
    Turquoise eyes drowning and drenched
    Within the angelic love song

    The hearts had met to one mystic soul
    Wanted to feel this forever and ever
    Never to cease and fade, never to wane
    My love I always felt , would always
    Last till the end of the time.

    I agree that this short peom isent mine, I take no credits for it. I dont know who’s written it, but what matters is that its an apt example of whats going through my mind..Normally I dont speak mushy, but now I am letting it out in public.

    Honey, listen to me, you may never know or understand  it, but if you  read this, I confess that I loved you more then anything else. True we may never meet, but if I could show you what true love was, then its this….My words are turning empty, but the feelings arent…Dear God, if you get time from you daily chores, can you please listen up a prayer I sent for her? Keep her happy. Just keep her happy, I know what pain is like, but I wish she remains happy. She retaught me the purpose of life.Those beautiful moments she passed with me make me feel heaven. I have no complaints with what happened, nor I care a damn about whats gonna take place, but the fact is, I am in deep love, I am rediscovering myself in a form previously unknown to me..

    Gosh, these feelings….let the rain come down and wash away my tears, let it shatter the walls and drown my fears..I feel as if I had been kissed by an angel of Love..A new day …has come…..

    To all those boozing hounds and enemies of Love and haters of God, non believers in Love – This post is not meant for you. Not at all for you. If you are the pathetic and immature souls whose concepts are fake as that of Maya, get a life..shoo away, you get it, just fly away..hide yourself into deepest dark oceans or infinite space..Go….!!!!

    Disclaimer While the people I write about are real, the experiences I post here may or may not be real and related to people I know. Its just my thoughts I have spoken to myself. If anyone of you finds a co-incidence, then rejoice…maybe I have taken some inspiration from you..And honestly, I do not hate anyone in life, even if you have managed to break my heart, you know that I am a brave soul 😉 Maybe 10 years from now I look back and say – O boy, I was so mad, crazy at times, I dont know. We are all strong and weak at times. So dont mind anything, just read, enjoy and move on with life
    • fennychandra 9:18 am on June 25, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Have you told her you love her? It’s funny if you share your deepest feeling to the world and she’s the only person who doesn’t have a clue. Come on..tell her.

    • shanupalani 9:11 am on June 30, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Its really great …. If she miss u she is very unlucky girl…. Even i too fell in love and my partner left me now… So i know the pain of love… But its all in the fate…

    • Arabinda 7:25 am on August 20, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      hey u have written something as a virtuoso ,saluting u man, my chimera is just like yors, nice to read yor writing. my world is something that i cant leave myself from the cultured beauties world.and my love is not blind but sees sees and ultimately loves her. hav a nic day .

    • sunnysideofliving 7:04 pm on September 21, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Very very poignant and touching…… I can relate to it too….

  • Harshad Joshi 2:36 pm on June 22, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , Friendship, , , Jilted Love, , , ,   

    Good Grief 

    This heartbreak hangover has continued for fairly long time, I mean its more then a week I havent been able to pick my spirits up. In one point of view, everything appears as a dead end, especially in this fast globalized ultramodern age, with so much technology and gadgets around, who would bother to wait and listen? Its such a fast paced world. Friendship made and broken in seconds, split seconds without batting an eyelid, On the other hand, the mind, the frenziness of emotions and feelings tell an otherwise story. Whom to really care for? Inspite of technology, the communication and understanding gap still prevails between people. This comes to notice specifically when one apologizes to a girl by making use of email/sms/chat combo. Even a guy advised me to meet her and sort it out. Boy, I had that courage and might, then probably I wouldent even have these bad feelings get into my way. This is Karma, we attach our emotions with so many people really without knowing the consequence of what will happen in future. Some blokes I know are pretty calculated individuals, they do not allow emotions to get in their way, call it a professional approach of sort.

    This incident taught me many things.

    1. No matter how much rich your dad is, a gurl will first look at you and your capabilities. Atleast the one who analyses you for a long time dosent get impressed by the prizes you won, she looks at the job and the yearly package. No other impression ever works.. 😦

    2. Surrounded by technology, we might get a feel of being a technocrat or whatever, but primitive feelings like emotions, rage, jealousy still exist. By no means we can avoid it. The forms and definations of ego might have changed, but it still continues to hurt as hell.

    3. Love hurts. In every age Love hurts. It has hurted me a lot. I dont know if I am mature enough to understand its true meaning, but the seen consequence makes me wonder – I am freaky enough to be loved?I am an equally loved and hated guy, I remember most of those occasions when I was hated..

    Gosh darn those status lines on my Gtalk – Love and Hate are one and all, sacrifice soon turns to revenge..

    A girl may not find these lines romantic enough, especially when shes commited to someone else. She will take it as an ominous sign of flirting, and bang, thats the end of all relations..no amount of apologies work, meeting is impossible, no truce…no peace, direct attack…what else??

    4. If you have been hurt before in relations, its wisdom to avoid complications in first place itself. If any jilted lover is reading this, I would advise – Avoid relations that do not exist. Example – A fragile relation that occured during a meeting over in social networking tools like MySpace, Orkut, FaceBook etc. These relations are never serious, they do not have any name, Modern pundits call it cyber relations, I dont have any good name for it. I mean its crazy concept to even think of attaching a name and emotions to a thing that exists in electronic world. Its true that sentimental fools like me are fond of attaching their feelings to the most ridiculous and insignificant things that exist in this world, its difficult at times. Here, every occasional hi, hello is a symbol of friendship, and every relation is apparantly a permanant one. Madness in all respect….I am a mad person who has got a provan track record of being in madly with love with girls I know I would never get to see, to touch, to talk and so on…This is my flaw, and I seriously need to get over it. My ex girl friend said that she avoided me because I did not had a ‘pure’ friendship with her. If I know that saying hello to her in wee hours of morning can spell as disaster I am suffering from, I would have avoided it. I am going to avoid it all togather throughout my life. Never send a girl an sms that can spoil your party. Controversies are never comfortable…

    5. Even if sacrifice may turn to revenge, you may not see the face who would say ‘I love you, I will kill you, but I will love you forever’ (Sobs…Sobs…..Tears…Sniff) I didnt 😦 Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…….

    I will update this if my girl replies back to me, else think this as the end of this post (and my spoilt relation as well ) Hey Girl, dont mind, I will still continue loving you..Pure love knows no limits   😦   (Sic..Snifff…)

    • Adi Crazy 6:50 am on June 23, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      🙂 Damn right you are. Agree with most of it.
      Did your girl reply?

    • Harshad Joshi 7:06 am on June 23, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ Adi

      Hi Adi. I met her. I apologized using all the words I knew till today, but she didnt like my new role of a jilted lover. I asked her if our relations would be right as they were earlier, she indirectly said ‘No.’ If this wasent enough, as per expectations, she informed me that shes getting married soon…I could do nothing more but nevertheless, I congratulated her. That was the only option I had, nothing more we can do. Relations are a crazy thing.

      Age of Lonliness is bad enough, and someone telling you that you are lonly is more bad then ever….

    • fennychandra 3:50 am on June 26, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      I can’t agree more. Love hurts. Avoid relations that do not exist. Example – A fragile relation that occured during a meeting over in social networking tools like MySpace, Orkut, FaceBook etc. My last messy relationship started from Skype. And here I am now with my grief. *sob sob*
      Cheer up dude!

    • The Big K 7:18 am on July 17, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Hmm. Look, some girls are idiots. Maybe your loved one was an idiot? 😀 . Be passionate about something in life and excuse people who have hurt you.

      Don’t keep on babbling about love all over you blog. Enjoy!

    • Harshad Joshi 11:52 am on July 17, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ The Biiig K

      Yeah, I ended that ‘heartbreak hangover’, everything seems fine now.. 🙂

  • Harshad Joshi 6:24 am on June 20, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , Hell, Innocence, , , , , , Threats, Time,   

    Moments of madness and sadeness(and peace too) 

    Its night. I am on the terrace, waiting for Nikhil. Our meeting is late by almost 2 hours, and on top of that, the sms meant for him went to someone else whom I have recently hurt a lot. Yeah, she was my only good friend who used to enquire – ‘Howz you’, no one, even my so called best buddies never asked me so sweetly of how am I? No one cared. I mean why would anyone bother?? My image in front of them is that of a warrior, every move is a war, every step is a step taken in battlefield, no place for emotions. Warriors are not meant to be asked ‘Howz you’, its assumed that they are fine. Why emotions? The only emotions that were known were Rage, and madness fueled by arrogance and ego, an ego I dont remember the time I carried first. Why do I have that image? Why am I attracted towards pain? Why do I have so much ego and arrogance that not only hurts me but also the people who are around me. Why? No one bothers to know this, but I am going to put it in public, I am suffering it for past 3 days, and its too much for me. The guilt is killing me. Its not the first time, but then who says that sufferings are easy? Sufferings are sufferings, everytime we suffer, it hurts. It hurts like hell. Why did I make a hell of my only good relations? Was I proud? Was I vain? Was I mad? I dont know, but definately I am sade.

    Coming back to the meeting. Nikhil and I met after almost 2 months. Strange thing. Two brothers living in a same place chat over Instant Messenger, instead of offline meetings. Ridiculous or inevitable? Is it overuse of technology or height of geekiness?? Whatever…

    I told him for my problems. His solutions are always working. I trust him for almost anything. He said – ‘Brother, why did you suffer?’, I said ‘I dont know’, pat came the reply – ‘Coz you are new to it’, I said ‘But she didnt feel anything about it’ He responded – ‘ Reason is that – its not new for her’ Boy, I wonder from where my brother gets these answers? He is genius for sure. He makes a good software engineer, ruthless at times, but very practical and to the point. Not unlike me, an emotional fool, too vulnerable to get hurt in this hard world. Is this the reason why I wear a mask of a Warrior? I dont know.

    We discussed many things- Current trends in industry, the upcoming standards, the bugs, the errors, the childhood memories, esp the one of playing hockey and football, had a good laugh at it remembering our innocent days.It was an innocent world far far away from tangents of todays technology.Candy tasted like Candy, sugar was sweet, TV was cartoons and joy was joy, no adultrations. Mom says I am still that innocent child trying to find his lost toys in a huge world. Lost toys? Will ever I get to regain my lost toys?

    BTW, a sms seeking her apology has gone unanswered. I know it reached her,but currently she is too hurt to respond. I will wait. Time can heal every wound. Hate can be pacified. Desires can be overcome, only Time knows how and when…

    To be continued…

  • Harshad Joshi 5:25 am on June 20, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , Dream, Heartbreak, Illusion, , ,   

    Illusion – आभास 

    आभास हा….. छळतो तुला…छळतो मला…!!

    Today is the second anniversary day when she met me on orkut, and sadely, today marks the first day of our official breakup.. 😦 Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa………!!!!

    (Someone put off my flames……I am burning….)

    • cia 5:15 am on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      I could sympathize, strange but true-3 days back was the first anniversary of our first meeting and fairly about 5 days ago, this year,we broke up.

      Couldn’t feel crappier, but still, i move on.

    • Harshad Joshi 9:36 am on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ Cia

      Forgive the poor soul who wasent lucky enough to be yours. 😉

      You can maximum pray for the peace of the unblessed ones, God listens to them.

    • cia 2:16 pm on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ harshad

      all the forgiveness n blessings are granted, he begins his married life in a couple months=)

    • Harshad Joshi 2:35 pm on June 24, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @ dude who broke cia’s heart

      Mate, if you ever stumble upon here or if you realize it by yourself, you will be surprised to know that Cia loved you truly, she just forgave you for folly you made. Next time dude, dont break a heart. Not all girls are kind hearted as cia.

      @ Cia
      You are a gem of a person. May God preserve your kindness.

  • Harshad Joshi 11:37 am on June 19, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Friends, , Greed, ,   

    Why! … 

    I was childish and unfair
    To you, my only friend
    I regret, but now it’s too late

    I can’t show you anymore
    The things I’ve learned from you
    Cause life just took you away

    And I’m asking why! …
    And I’m asking why! …
    Nobody gives an answer
    I’m just asking why

    But someday we’ll meet again
    And I’ll ask you

    And I’ll ask you why! …
    Why it has to be like this
    I’m asking you why
    Please give me an answer

    Many years and stupid fights
    Till we accept to see
    How it was and it’ll always be

    Why it has to be like this
    Why we don’t realize
    Why we’re too blind to see the one
    Who’s always on our side

    And I’m asking why! …
    And I’m asking why! …
    Nobody gives an answer
    I’m just asking why

    Just tell me why! …
    Why it has to be like this
    That the good ones disappear
    I’m asking you why

    And I’m asking why! …
    And I’m asking why! …
    Nobody gives an answer
    I’m just asking why

    And I’m asking why! …

  • Harshad Joshi 10:52 am on June 18, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , , ,   


    Whatever happens, happens…

    We create, We destroy

    A form, nobody knows….

    Desires create, Desires destroy

    Still, Karma spares no one…

    The Eternal Sacred Flame..

    Always burns…


    Look into mirrors of your soul, love and hate are one and all…

    Sacrifice soon turns to revenge and believe me, you would see the face who will say – I love you, I’ll kill you, but I will love you forever..

    These were the lines on my gtalk status, and the girl I was meeting for almost 2 years decided to abandon me. True there was no offline relation between us, nevertheless I was fool to associate my emotions with someone who was never mine. ‘Pure Friendship’ Duh.. How can she be so cruel, so cold hearted, so mean? So much that it brought tears to my eyes..after a long time, I remember – Tears dont taste good, they have got lot of sorrow filled in…I hate em. A man hates tears..And by the way, if purity is so weak that it gets broken so fast, then I hate it too..(Tears…cries…) 😦

  • Harshad Joshi 4:16 am on June 18, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , , , Relationships   

    Random Mumblings after a sleepless night 

    I am staring at my Mug right now. I dont know what I am feeling, but its sure that its not a feel good thing. Looking at myself, I wonder – What makes me suffer so much? What makes me behave crazy at times? How come my instincts lie to me at times? Why do my trusted tricks fail at the worst moments? Why do I get same thoughts after spending a complete 10 hours sleepless night?

    Wish I could scream and let the whole world know I am unhappy, I wish I could cry and announce my sadeness, at least let those emotions flow though my tears, but nothing happens. I am just looking at myself and thinking – From where do these emotions come? Why is my face emotionless? Where are my emotions? What happened to them? Have I lost my emotions due to these gadgets((mobil, wifi, broadband, satellite tv, internet, blogs, networks) around me? This 24 hours connected craze has drained me completely..on top of that, inspite surrounded by technology, people, I am lonely…as lonely as a single cloud on a bright sunny day. At least that cloud looks beautiful on a blue background, me me is in blues, in gloom. Still no emotions in sight..has the mirror lost his charm…or is he showing me a fadeout picture of my everlasting cast…Love is phasing…Love is moving to the rhythm of her sight…I get closer, to the crossing point of light…

    I dont remember that I was awake or in half sleep, but I do remember a bright light when my eyes closed. A bright light. Reminding of fire..fire like that of desires…Desires never burn, Desires never end, Desires are never over..and surprisingly, Karma spares no one..All night I wished there could be darkness, a place I could hide, but this light kept on chasing me. Is this what people call enlightment?? And why do people get en lighted only when their heart is broken? Is my heart really broken? Is it my figment of imagination?? I know that this world is a cruel place, no importance to emotions, especially for some stupid one called as attraction, love, whatever..But then I see people around me in love, where am I in there?

    I need to take a break. I wish to loose my senses for space and time…And I will…..

    At the same time, its wrong to long for a thing that never belonged to you, no one gave me the right to peek in their private life. I am not on the right track, need to return on my rivers of beliefs…the original me. The strong Harshad Joshi. The one who was before knowing all this. The one who stood by his principals. The one who fought against all evils. The one who was firm on his grounds. The one who never compromised. The first one to fight and the last one to quit. Thats me. Thats me. I want my glory back. O Mohiniraj, give me my strenght…

  • Harshad Joshi 3:55 pm on June 17, 2008 Permalink | Reply

    In memory of my lost facination 

    20/06/2006 – 17/06/2008

    Three days short of our 2nd meeting birthday, my dear destiny, how can be you so cruel, cold hearted and brutal…

    (sobs…sobs… sniff..)


  • Harshad Joshi 4:35 am on June 15, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , Crazy, , , , , , , , , , ,   

    The 100th post 

    Love - Picture of hearts

    I am in love, inspite of the fact that I am not going to reach anywhere closer. Strange word this Love, one of the most primitive feelings yet the strongest one with no parallel. I know its crazy to fall in love with someone you have never seen, just occasionally heard and met only through Instant Messaging. Is this relation called cyber love? Whatever…

    Even if its a cyber or virtual love, I wont deny, my feelings are as strong as ever…Love hurts, when the girl you are after seeks someone else, Love definately hurts…but falling for her is a crazy concept in all aspects, God knows why I have affinity to fall for someone elses girl….3 times it has happened. 1st time – I didnt had courage to speak up, the 2nd instance – she was married (she was my teacher..!!) and now, this 3rd time – Shes committed already, and poor me, is bruised yet again for absolutely no reasons..once again I experience the sadeness…

    The only memories for a jilted cyber romancer like me is to occasionally go through the IM chat history desperately trying to capture those wonderful moments or to go through the sms she sent me…Boy, I have gone crazy, crazy as ever….

    Monday, 16 Jun 08

    Actually I am feeling much better now. I think a blog post helped me more then half a dozen anti depressant pills and couple of beers. So, moral of the story – The Zen Hindu Brahminism advices to write a blog each time you succeed, each time you fail, each time you are happy, each time you are sade. Posting or writting helps to unpersonify dukkha..

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